Monthly Archives: July 2013


Funny how you just knew you were going to die
It hurt so bad that it had to kill you
But then people tell you you were wrong
Weren’t you?
Because you’re not dead
You’re alive
You carry on the day to day
Eating, sometimes
Sleeping, sometimes
Laughing, now and again
So you were wrong
It didn’t kill you
Did it?
You walk about
Carrying on the day to day
Eating, sometimes
Sleeping, sometimes
Laughing, now and again
But they don’t see
In fact, you are dead


I was born broken
When I was five I tripped and grazed my knee
Blood and grit
When I was seven I split my head
Sewn back together like a torn teddy bear
When I was eight I cracked my tooth on sweets
Refilled with stuff so sour
When I was eleven I slipped and smashed my arm
Three places
When I was fifteen he called me fat
Two years, destroying myself
When I was sixteen the family cat etched its mark into my thigh
For always
When I was seventeen the first one scarred me with ink
When I was twenty-three my world fell from me
Never to return
When I was twenty-seven something exploded
Manageable, they said
But now
Every scar is open
Ever break throbs
Every bruise is dark and purple
For this pain is everything
I was born broken
I will die in pieces

I’ll Never Forget

I’ll never forget the first time you told me
Then got scared and called the whole thing off
I’ll never forget how you came back to me
And I couldn’t cope
So I left
I’ll never forget the pain when you ignored me
Or being scared that I’d hurt you
When I did it back
I’ll never forget the parlour magic trick
The wink
And your lips on the back of my hand
I’ll never forget your honesty
I’ll never forget your lies
I’ll never forget your shaking voice over the phone
Or my stuttering replies
Because I couldn’t breathe
I’ll never forget your smile
I’ll never forget you telling me I was special
Or that I meant the world
And that you’d never want anything bad to happen to me
I’ll never forget being jealous of everyone
And flirting with anyone
My clumsy attempts to get you to notice
I’ll never forget the tears that blinded me
I’ll never forget
Why did you?